healing

namaste.


need I say more.

I am completely fascinated with yoga. I feel it will be apart of my healing.

My first class was a couple months ago. When I sat down cross legged in that first class and started to breath deep...with my palms facing upwards, I started to...are you ready for this...I started to get emotional. I felt so strongly that I was doing exactly what April needed to be doing with her body. It felt so right, like I had found another clue to my healing quest...in search of those hidden treasures I tell you. (D&C 89:19)

So, for me personally, I feel greatly inspired, with my health in mind, to venture forth on the yoga experiment. Even though I feel greatly awkward in almost every pose I do...I am still learning...still learning.

My teacher is interesting. In the beginning of class while we are engaging in deep breathing, she usually will share some Yogi Wisdom. It is fluffy and nice and yet I feel there is a lot of truth to what she is saying. Today she talked about "growth" and "the whole world suffers when you stop growing" I have a real passion for eastern religion talk...it is all about becoming one with yourself. The only major part missing is that when you truly become one with God you naturally understand your worth...and so becoming one with God allows you to become one with self. Sometimes it is easy to leave God out of the equation with eastern philosophy. But studying world religion in college really opened up my learning experience and I began to see loads of new truth- out there just waiting for me to snatch up.

Today my teacher whipped out a C.S. Lewis book. My thoughts, "ok it is sort of dark in here but I swear the book she is holding is 'Mere Christianity'" And what do you know?...my teacher starts to quote C.S. Lewis- perfect. just perfect.

The words "heal, let the body heal" come to mind when I do yoga. And then again also the words, "I am going to lose all the circulation to my brain and my legs real soon in this pose...I AM BREATHING LADY!!!! Look at the sweat pouring down my face...trust me, I'M definitely living in the NOW. NOW let's change this pose QUICK!!!"

I know, all very funky for some- but I have been on a quest to truly understand the connection between body and spirit- and so therefore yoga just makes complete sense to me...at this step in my life.

so yes to yoga.

I have changed a lot over the years. Janna do you remember when we were 18 or so and we went to a yoga class at 24 hour fitness in Liberty Lake and we laughed so hard we had to leave? We were like, "this is tooo much...I'd rather do kick boxing...did the instructor just say, "become one with the earth?""

times have changed...but I still love Billy Jean.