Tuesday, December 31, 2013


I feel really blessed. I love my life. I really do. I mean it sucks sometimes obviously and I have my lows and I think I might just drown at any minute- but I love my family, my friends, my faith- my heart is full and I couldn't be more grateful.

Chay and my kids make me smile. I spend a lot of time with them and it really fills any void I think I might be feeling. Nothing makes more sense to me than being a wife and mom. So that is what I do. Those amazing mothers who can pull off anything extra in their lives, I stand in AH! My brain and heart can't seem to find room for anything extra besides mommyhood and serving in the church. Maybe in another season of life...like when I'm 50!


I like New Year's resolutions. I think people should always set goals- realistic ones, unrealistic- funny ones. Who cares if the majority of us don't keep them. To me they signify hope. So I like them.

Today I have hope.

Today I ache all over. I have been downing Ibuprofen daily for the past month. My head is pounding. My joints ache. I am tired. The stairs seems daunting. I have weight to lose. Crossroads, tipping point- whatever you call it, I might be facing a time in my life that determines how the rest of my life concerning health will play out.

I like to do things for the experience. I will say yes or volunteer to do things just for the experience. Why not?

So tomorrow I start an experience that I trust in.  But tonight, I reflect on hope- because I think it's the first vital step to trying something hard with God on your side.