Tuesday, November 23, 2010


My appointment today in Provo to see if I have CCSVI was moved to December 7th. So, I must wait a couple more weeks. Thank you to all those who are excited and took the time to watch those videos. I am the luckiest person ever. I am surrounded by such wonderful supportive friends and family.

It's a big trip to Provo... so dang it, I will have to go to IKEA now on the drive back home. I hate when that happens. Oh IKEA- you can be so demanding sometimes.

Monday, November 22, 2010

7 years

7 years of good luck...

Chay and I were married 7 years ago. Holy smokes! Life is passing so quickly.

I really like hearing Chay's voice when he calls me from work. It is deep but kind...and soft. You know, reassuring.

Some lines from Sarah's song "Push" that remind me of Chay and I.

You've seen me at my weakest but you take me as I am
And when I fall you offer me a softer place to land

I get mad so easy but you give me room to breathe
No matter what I say or do 'cause you're too good to fight about it
Even when I have to push just to see how far you'll go
You wont stoop down to battle but you never turn to go

There are times I can't decide when I can't tell up from down
You make me feel less crazy when otherwise Id drown
But you pick me up & brush me off and tell me I'm OK
sometimes that's just what we need to get us through the day

But you know what my favorite part of our marriage is?...-is bedtime. Bedtime...the house is finally quiet and we can lay in bed together with my head resting right below his shoulder and his arm around me- oh I just love it!

Snuggle up and get warm
fight over who has most of the blanket
talk about funny things the girls said that day
talk about really fat cats
quote The office
go over our to-do lists
watch YouTube on the Droid
talk about politics together- ok it's just me talking but Chay listens
talk about goals, school, callings, paper route, health, work, stories from childhood
covered wagons- not funny

Sometimes we don't talk at all. Sometimes there just isn't anything to say.
Comfortable safe silence.

unless I'm mad of course...now that isn't comfortable silence obviously. Whoever said it was wise to never go to bed angry was dumb. Usually by morning I'm so out of it, I don't even recall what I was upset about.

Anyway- happy 7. Happy seven I'm in heaven.

Check out those chops.

love you Chay.

Monday, November 15, 2010

what's on my mind

Christmas...I want to make it meaningful and traditional...and exciting for my girls.

How big my kitchen feels now that we knocked down a wall- so to all homeowners, when it doubt, knock it out.

My wood floors Chay sanded and refinished last weekend- beautiful. Loud and echos horribly. But beautiful.

I cried watching Sound of Music the other night. What a good wholesome movie. I can't stop singing the music from the movie.

I love Maria. Don't we all?

my health- seems to be getting worse. I try to ignore it as much as I can. MS is lonely and misunderstood by everyone who doesn't have it. It plays a mind game on me constantly as I try to talk myself out of fatigue, weakness, and pain. Every small thing is a big chore and I try to keep a smile on my face. I just treasure the moments when I feel on top of my game. I have days when I can go go go and not stop and I get giddy inside with my youthful abundance of energy. I am reminded of my old self- back in the days when I was constantly going and playing- working. It really is wonderful. I really try to thank Heavenly Father for each moment of strength and capability my body performs.

Ok so...what is majorly consuming my mind is found in the following 3 videos. I am completely fascinated by this...and I go in on November 23 to see if I can be "liberated". This is very new and still being researched...and the doctor's office told me insurance will pay for this for now until they find out it is being done to help MS patients.

But basically Dr. Zamboni is trying to prove that MS is a vascular problem and not an autoimmune disease.

But I am very careful and so I wanted to feel good about this- and you know, I do. I really do feel good about it. I am hopeful and prayerful...and my heart pounds so hard just thinking about how this might help me. So please watch...and tell me what you think.

You can learn a lot about MS from these videos. So if you're bored and wonder what the heck I'm attempting to do to help myself...have at it.

Joette and Dad- these videos explain it better than I can...

Thursday, November 04, 2010

my kind of news

ok I am so sick of hearing about mid-term elections...so I was so thrilled to read this story today. WOW. All I can say is WOW. There are people out there who are just amazing. We're all here on earth to teach each other something wonderful- But this couple- wow. Talk about having it all together. Love their perspective on life. Great examples.

Canadian couple who won $11.2m in the lottery give it ALL away to charity

This article is from here

A Canadian couple who won $11.2million (£7million) on the lottery have given it all away to friends, charities and hospitals.

Allen and Violet Large, both in their 70s, said their good fortune earlier this year had been a 'big headache' and they had decided against going on a spending spree.

'What you’ve never had, you never miss,' Violet, 78, told the Toronto Star.
She and Allen, 75, eventually decided it was better to give than receive and were totally at ease with handing over the money.

Married for 36 years, the pair retired in 1983 and moved from Ontario to Lower Truro, Nova Scotia, for a quieter life. Allen had worked as a welder for 30 years and Violet had been employed by a number of confectionery and cosmetic firms.

'We were pretty well set, not millionaires, but comfortable,' said Allen of the couple's financial set-up before their lottery win in July.

'That money that we won was nothing,' Allen told the Toronto Star. 'We have each other.'

Violet has since had surgery to tackle her condition and received her last chemotherapy treatment a week ago.

Hospitals in Truro and Halifax, Nova Scotia, were among the main beneficiaries of the Larges' generosity after they decided on giving away every cent of their $11,255,272 win.

After taking care of their families, the couple then gave donations to a long list of groups they had decided to help, including their local fire department, churches and cemeteries, the Red Cross, the Salvation Army.

The hospitals where Violet underwent her treatment and organisations that fight cancer, Alzheimer’s and diabetes, also benefited from the couple's largesse.

The Larges have not disclosed how much they gave to each organisation but said they are humbled and thankful for the phone calls and letters of gratitude they have received.'

'It made us feel good,' said Violet. 'And there's so much good being done with that money.

'We're the lucky ones,' she added

Tuesday, November 02, 2010

go out and vote will ya?

Don't forget to vote today...because it's a really cool thing to do... and also because we should...and because it's a right we shouldn't take for granted.

Go vote dang it.