Wednesday, March 31, 2010

the 4's

I have been tagged. Online terminology makes me laugh...

I have also received a couple circulating emails from friends about the 4's in their I think I will combine them all and answer them all here. I swear I have already done this before...

I had a hard time keeping my 4's to 4. Sometimes I just had to have 5,6, or 7. we go...

4 shows I like to watch...

1. The office
2. HGTV- pretty much anything on that channel gets my wheels turning.
3. Glenn Beck- only sometimes...he can be a bit much at times.
4. My little secret- Re-runs of Desperate Housewives on Lifetime. That show makes folding the clothes very entertaining.

4 things I am passionate about...

1. personal truth and finding more and more of it
2. The miracle of The United States of America, the Founding Fathers-
3. Health, feeling amazing and finding truth in these areas
4. The Gospel of Jesus Christ, family, home, and relationships.

4 phrases I say a lot...

1. let's be soft girls
2. for crying out loud
3. Where is the sunshine????
4. Mommy loves you so much

4 of my favorite stuff...

1. My Dr. Denese's Dream Cream face moisturizer
2. My chacos
3. My blendtec blender
4. my water pillow. Everyone needs a water pillow.

4 things I have learned from the past...

1. My weaknesses can become my strengths
2. The body is a gift. Treat it like so.
3. My accomplishments don't win God's Love. He loves me no matter what!
4. Best friends made from teenage/college years are guilt, no facade, no shame, no backbiting, - just true loyal friendship.

4 places I want to go...

1. The Sacred Grove
2. Brazil- but this time in vacation mode and not missionary mode.
3. Serve a mission with Chay in Brazil...back to missionary mode.
4. Somewhere beautiful and foreign...not a beach...and not a cruise...but somewhere where we hike/walk a lot...and ride bikes...trees, lakes, rivers, sweat, maybe a service project with an orphanage or something...Machu Picchu would be so fun to see and hike.

4 things I would like to learn to do...

1. rock climb
2. kayak
3. wood working- build furniture
4. how to grow everything- landscaping and gardening

4 things I did yesterday...

1. Went to Good Earth Natural Foods
2. Filled up 7 gallons of "my" water at Macey's
3. Read several chapters of Exodus...kept thinking of the cartoon "Prince of Egypt"
4. Went to bed at 9! It was lovely.

4 things I am looking forward to...

1. Summer if there is such a thing in this dreadful place. No more snow! Do I live in Alaska? I swear the summers are longer there than here.
2. Having my house the way I want it- I know, I'm dreaming
3. Seeing my mom again someday. Oh I can't wait!
4. Having my sweet little baby boy...

4 things I am not looking forward to...

1. having my sweet little baby boy-(newborns are so wonderful but so hard, sleepless nights scare me.)
2. when the girls spend more time at school than at home.
3. whatever next congress will pass
4. summer ending...I know it hasn't even begun, but I miss it already.

4 things I love about Winter...

1. Utah's huge-in your face-gorgeous-snow capped mountains- BREATHTAKING!
2. wearing pea coats, hats, sweaters, and scarfs
3. Kid's excitement for Christmas
4. Christmas music

4 things I love about Summer...

1. watching the kids explore and play
2. mornings
3. watering the garden
4. swimming, walks, hikes, BBQ's, warm nights, camping, garage sales

4 things that bug me...

1. when Kenzie won't take NO for an answer
2. long lines
3. snow in April
4. negative people who make fun of everyone

4 things on my wish list...

1. a garage, yes a garage 16X20 to be exact
2. a SLR camera- nice one
3. a new kitchen
4. a guitar, piano lessons, to be strong and in amazing shape

4 things on my to-do list

1. paint my armoire- waiting for nice weather
2. paint bedroom downstairs
3. have the binki fairy come
5. paint and set up the bunk bed- waiting for nice weather

4 of my favorite foods

1. avocados
2. home-made salsa from the garden
3. pears
4. salad with all the fixings- sunflower seeds on top

4 things I do when bored

1. read blogs
2. play the piano
3. make the girl's laugh
4. call a friend

ok so what are your 4's? Your turn to blog about it now.

Friday, March 26, 2010

childhood books

Nothing like a book to satisfy my inner weakness:

When I would read this book growing up, I secretly wanted it to snow chunks of white wonder bread.

Years past and I forgot about the book but the wonder bread obsession stayed...I think the obsession is finally gone...but a storm of chocolate mint ice cream would be nice. But since I'm eating ultra healthy...I guess an asparagus hail storm would have to do...imagine an endless supply of asparagus on our front lawn...(that was for you Chay)

Years later I found the book "Cloudy with a Chance of Meatballs" downstairs in my parent's house. Joette and I were reading it for the first time in probably 15-20 years. We laughed so hard.

Our conversation, "who let's children read these kind of books? Because of this book, we now subconsciously fantasize about the pancake mountain!" We then confronted Mom and tried blaming her for buying the book...We were kidding obviously...but seriously not a healthy book for someone with food obsessions...and I am steering clear from the movie.

And then we got to the famous Henry books by Robert Quakenbush. Joette and I decided on the same night to read some more books from our childhood that have caused us to deal with certain "issues" in our life. Oh it was so fun to pull these books out and read them out loud. Joette, mom and I were laughing so hard...who knew children's books could be so entertaining...and destructive.

Has anyone out there read these books??? Do they stress anyone out like they stress me out? Henry the Duck is a basket case with an obvious overly manipulative friend named Clara. I would say Henry has some sort of addictive obsession with pleasing Clara. Joette and I both agreed we have had to deal with a couple "Claras" in our life. I swear Robert Quackenbush had a serious case of OCD.

So I brought these books home with me and now they're in the bookcase. And yes I read them to my girls. And yes Kenzie gets overly worried about Henry not getting to Clara's birthday party on time.

What books did you read when you were little?

Tuesday, March 23, 2010

ffff continued

I know my last post had strong language and I'm sure I offended some or appeared ignorant to others.

I believe in the individual before the collective. Because what is a collective if each and every individual in the collective aren't given their agency? You have a pretty lame collective- a lame enough collective that they need a king to govern them...because as an individual they never learned to govern themselves. Collective is never first...the collective is a POWERFUL second...once the individual is allowed to grow and learn from liberty. The whole society flourishes because the individual had his/her personal liberty.

For those reasons I still believe health care is a privilege and not a right to the individual.

I have been denied coverage twice because I had a D&C operation and also for MS. It sucked and seemed a little unfair. But never once did I expect my health bills to paid for by someone else.

Now those who are dealing with things more life threatening- my heart goes out to them. I know many people are dealing with the loom of medical bills...and I know people are sick with an illness and can't find insurance. There are some major problems out there with the financial end of health care...the costs especially...everyone knows is a tricky sad situation.

But the so called "answer to health care problems" the congress voted for on Sunday was NOT the solution. It is an unconstitutional bill, giving too much power to the executive branch- which was never intended and even warned against by the founding fathers.

It's a power grab bill not a health care bill. It is screwy and a complete mess. It was pushed through, it was lobbied, it was driven by special interests...maybe there were some great things passed in the bill...but at what cost are we willing to give it all away? It's the trade that scares me. It's the instant gratification- the quick fixes, the hand out of health care- for the trade of grievous consequences that will happen later on that scare me...

I'm not cold hearted and I don't want people with no health insurance to suffer- oh please. I cry at Liberty Mutual commercials remember? I just don't feel like this health care bill will help in the long run. It will slowly destroy and kill what makes America great. I see the bigger picture. Health care now and then what's next? The outcome...the long haul...the dependency it will cause, the free markets being attacked, big government, the constitution hanging by a thread- scary.

I believe that if God helped direct the writing of the Constitution, He could have also helped with a fair constitutional health care bill that would attack the real problems and not satisfy the want of power. But it almost seems that faith in God's help is out of the question these days- almost a thing of the we have progressed too far to need God in our lives. Most politicians seem to only use God to get votes.

I know there was an executive order made to protect abortions from being funded by tax dollars- we will see how effective that is. Aborting a child is wrong enough, let alone having the government/people pay for it...oh boy watch out...God wouldn't let that go on for too long I'll tell you that.

Like I've said before, our biggest problem in this country is that we are becoming God-less. We are taking Him out of the equation. We are forgetting Him. We keep Him set aside for Sunday's only (if that)...and for that obligated prayer here and there that arises with tradition only. I don't think any civilization will survive long without God, not even capitalism will work if God isn't the moral foundation of men's decisions. Greed, power, dishonesty, deceit, and immorality are found wherever God isn't.

Monday, March 22, 2010


fight for freedom friday...on Monday.

"A Campaign Begins Today" by Mitt Romney

"America has just witnessed an unconscionable abuse of power. President Obama has betrayed his oath to the nation — rather than bringing us together, ushering in a new kind of politics, and rising above raw partisanship, he has succumbed to the lowest denominator of incumbent power: justifying the means by extolling the ends. He promised better; we deserved better.

He calls his accomplishment “historic” — in this he is correct, although not for the reason he intends. Rather, it is an historic usurpation of the legislative process — he unleashed the nuclear option, enlisted not a single Republican vote in either chamber, bribed reluctant members of his own party, paid-off his union backers, scapegoated insurers, and justified his act with patently fraudulent accounting. What Barack Obama has ushered into the American political landscape is not good for our country; in the words of an ancient maxim, “what starts twisted, ends twisted.”

His health-care bill is unhealthy for America. It raises taxes, slashes the more private side of Medicare, installs price controls, and puts a new federal bureaucracy in charge of health care. It will create a new entitlement even as the ones we already have are bankrupt. For these reasons and more, the act should be repealed. That campaign begins today."

— Mitt Romney is the former governor of Massachusetts and author of No Apology.

I don't know everything. I do not have all the answers.

Yet, I know the health care bill passed yesterday was unconstitutional.

No, Mrs. Pelosi health care is not a right. It is a privilege.

We were born with certain rights like liberty, not free health insurance, not a free house nor any kind of hand-out. When we honor our God-given inalienable rights, great privileges still may or may not occur. The pursuit of a pursuit--not a handout. With liberty, life still is hard at times (imagine that?) and with liberty life can bring great rewards. Liberty allows each one of us to learn. Real learning- through failure and through success...which produce a car, a comfortable retirement, health care, a decent safe home or whatever it is you feel is important to some it means to travel or to own a 52 inch flat screen...we choose- health care is a choice.

Ok liberals, side note, but honestly, do you all really like Nancy Pelosi or do just some of you like her? Doesn't she give you the hibi-jibies whenever she talks? She is one disturbing eerie leery lady. She is not a feel good person.

Today on CNN the reporter was reading viewer emails regarding the newly passed health care bill. One viewer wrote in, "I am so happy this bill passed because I am poor and now the rich can pay for my health care."

This is a mess. The founding fathers are ROLLING over in their graves. They are up in heaven just disgusted right now--covering their eyes.

Hold on everybody...get prepared. The ride has only just begun. Listen to the counsel of the prophets and get out of debt, get your food storage, gather your family close, and stay close to the promptings of the Spirit- and as we try to cling to this foundation of principled living hopefully our children or our children's children will know how to handle the financial crisis the government of today has caused...

oh and please vote out all the crazies this November.

Sunday, March 21, 2010

small choices

and how about those Liberty Mutual commercials????

These commercials have a powerful message...and for some odd reason they make hormonal pregnant ladies cry.

With all the cruddy icky that surrounds us, there is still so much good.

(you might have to let this buffer)

Smart marketing I'd say.

Saturday, March 20, 2010


Poor Chay...sick with something funky. Fever, chills, nausea...

We cancelled all birthday plans so the guy can get better.

He is so quiet and relaxed when he is sick. Doesn't say much...just wants his head scratched.

Chay is 29 today.

Chay has the biggest heart.
He hates when people and family pre-judge him. It crushes his spirit.
He is SMART. Mechanics, electronics and carpentry stuff come very easy for him.
He is the perfect FRIEND. Kind to EVERYONE he meets.
He is not a communicator of words...yet he is very easy to read.
He likes to take baths...even in our bathtub which is about 3 feet too small for him.
He is healthy. (not this week but for the most part I am astounded with his energy)
He is tall. He is handsome. You should see him in a suit.
He is a hard worker.
He doesn't ever put his shoes away...and he HATES doing the dishes with a PASSION.
He makes everyone feel comfortable.
Chay is funny. Chay has the best laugh...the most contagious smile.
He cares about people and gets mad when they make silly mistakes.
Chay loves talking 4wheeler-motorcycles-anything-with-an-engine with his brothers.
Chay is a people guy.
Chay is protective. Mr. Safety. Careful. Watchful.
Chay is a good Daddy. He is our prince in shining armour around here.
Chay loves God.
Chay is a fighter for his family and his relationships. He is not a quitter.
He is deeply committed.

Happy birthday Chay. love you.

Tuesday, March 16, 2010

healing segment

so about 2 weeks ago I burned my tongue really bad tasting a homemade minestrone soup I was making. It had more vegetables than normal and quinoa instead of pasta...but honestly it was gross...I messed up on the spices and I kept hoping it would taste like Olive Garden's.

Nope. Not even close. (anyone have a good minestrone soup recipe that I could alter?)

But it was the whole burning tongue thing that became such a munching on spinach leaves without taste buds didn't go over too well with me.

I couldn't taste much for 3 days and my tongue hurt so bad. Then Chay came home with a half gallon of ice cream and nothing sounded more lovely on my burnt tongue...and you know, it was lovely. I also made cookies and stopped drinking my supergreens for a couple days...On Sunday of last week I could tell I was feeling icky...fatigue, headaches, cloudy, weak, achy...and by Tuesday I came down with a horrible sore throat. Wednesday it moved to my chest...and ever since then I have had the worse chest cold. The coughing is out of control.

My body is sensitive. I KNOW the sugar and dairy jeopardized my immune system...I just know it. Plus I am pregnant...which never helps the immune system either.

Many of you disagree with me on the dairy thing. Trust me, I want to disagree too. I love dairy. Who doesn't love yogurt, cheese, and a big tall glass of milk with a peanut butter sandwich? But I also almost married the wrong guy once...loved him dearly...but oh so so wrong for was NEVER meant to be.

I'm not 100% sure humans should be so dependent on the cow as much as they are...we can't live without the cow...have you ever noticed? moooo moooo and they're really dumb animals. Trust me I know- we raised cattle until I was 12. My dad knows how to talk to them. He knows how to call to them and they'll follow him. True farmer that man. But cows really are so stupid. They just stand out in a field all day looking around and eating. It convinces me on a very small level that their only purpose in life is to be eaten...mooo mooo

ok so now I am trying all I can to heal my cold fast. Back on track. Burnt tongue no more. Green drink several times a day. Herbal tea, colloidal silver, steam facials, blessings, prayer...I'm trying it all- I'm kind of forced to being pregnant since I can't take anything over the counter...I was dreaming of downing NyQuil the other night.

Does anyone out there have a perfect natural remedy for bad colds? Charity? Cami? You two come to mind. Please share. Charity, I remember you telling me about this grapefruit extract thing you would do????

I am starting to feel a little better...still a nasty cough...but hopes are high.

ok several questions have been asked about my weird way of eating...and it is weird...makes perfect sense to me, but weird...especially with our culture.

moooo mooooo

I will answer the questions when I have more time. Took too much time writing about stupid cows.

Sunday, March 14, 2010

growing up

Yesterday Chay was out of town taking care of some family business...

and so that left pregnant me, who is a little under the weather may I add, and the girls to do the paper route. Let's just say I was NOT happy about it. But oh well...on we go right?

Of course I was driving the route and Kenzie persistently asked if she could help. Since the papers were being delivered dreadfully late, I got desperate at the end and took up Kenzie's offer. Little 4 year old Kenzie was running from house to house with rolled up newspapers in her hand. She would drop the papers off at a few doors and run back into the car. She would always buckle up again...only to take off her seat belt 2 minutes later. She was huffing and puffing and got the best exercise of her life. She was so proud of herself, as was I. While she is still willing, we will have to make her our little paper girl helper more often. It was so cute. Mckenzie...growing up.

My first attempt at cutting Mckenzie's hair:

I cut Kenzie's hair yesterday. It was a long and tangled mess. Kenzie kept asking for bangs...oh dear. I didn't want to fork out the money for a cut so I pretended I knew what I was doing. Not always a good idea.

I still need practice but it works for now. Ready for summer anyway. I cut off a good 6 inches. She looks so different to me- so grown up. And Ju Ju...oh dear...she refuses to grow up- wants to be a baby still...which we are carefully working on...but whether she likes it or not she is growing up too...she turned into a little girl over night. So precious. I secretly want her hair. I haven't seen anyone look so good with messy hair.

quotes I found today

“When we rejoice in great music and art, it is but the flexing of instincts learned in the previous life.” ~Elder Neal A. Maxwell

I swear I am reminded of a familiar heavenly place when I hear certain music.

Experienced it today.

Oh and I love this one too:

"It is much easier to believe in eternal progression than to practice daily improvement. Likewise, the need for humility is easy to assent to, but it is so difficult to receive corrective counsel humbly." ~ Elder Neal A. Maxwell

So so so true...easier to talk about the importance of being humble than actually being humble. What? You expect me to really change? Naa I'd rather just talk about it at church...or point out others who need to change than actually do it myself... far far easier.

Anyone stumble with this too at times???

Can you tell I love and miss Elder Neal A. Maxwell????

Sunday, March 07, 2010

sunday nap

You'd think a book with a title like that- it would keep anyone awake to read it...

sorry Ju Ju had a long day. She'll catch up on your stinky adventures when she wakes up.

Friday, March 05, 2010

snow and more snow

This is what we woke up to this morning...and it is still snowing and snowing...and I think I'm about to go crazy. I took this picture 1/2 hour ago. There is a couple more inches now. I think I've had enough. Where am I? What is this place? My sister told me yesterday that it has been 65 degrees all week up where I'm from- and that is 700 miles north from here! On days like these I irrationally start planning a way to get us to move home. I miss home. I miss Spring.

ok let's try to be grateful...the snow is sort of pretty...and the mountains here are absolutely breathtaking. I am thankful for the moisture...and to all those avid skiers and snowboarders who come from all over and jam up the airport from November to April- have at it. Welcome to Utah.

Wednesday, March 03, 2010


I can deal with Cinderella pretty well.

My girls are fascinated with her. For that very reason I refuse to buy any Disney movies. But Kenzie is smart...too smart...her wheels are always turning. One day she said, "YouTube will play Cinderella right?"

Yes, you can watch Cinderella on YouTube. In 9 minute segments.

What is it with little girls and princesses? Disney is a mastermind I swear.

Reasons why I can handle Cinderella pretty well:

My girls beg to help me clean the kitchen floor so they can sing "Sing Sweet Nightingale"

Cinderella is dressed pretty decent and modest I'd say.

Cinderella's stepmother reminds me of my piano teacher when I was 5...and also my mean 2nd grade teacher.

I am totally inspired by Cinderella's color choice of work clothes. Who doesn't love brown and blue together?

My girls know "Lucifer" means bad bad bad...and he's always out to get you.

I often get requests to sing "No matter how your heart is grieving, if you keep on believing, a dream that your wish will come true" I'd say those are pretty positive lyrics.

And when Cinderella Barbie loses a glass slipper somewhere in the big toy box, there is always an easy explanation to the girls why it must be missing. She is the only princess barbie allowed to be missing a shoe in this house.

so this is love...hmmmm hmmmm

Monday, March 01, 2010

trusting the Weaver's hand

It seems as I go through Mom's keepsakes, I discover she didn't collect much of anything unless it was super sentimental.

I am proud of you Mom for not being a pack rat of all those many church handouts and non meaningful Christmas/birthday cards. I would have never guessed- especially knowing what your craft room used to look like over the years :)

But I did stumble upon this poem in Mom's stuff- it must have spoken to Mom the same way it spoke to me. I can see why she decided to put it in her keepsake box...this quote made sense to her- she knew and trusted God was doing something great with her despite her many trials.

The Weaver

My life is but a weaving between my God and me,
I can not choose the colors He worketh steadily.

Ofttimes He weaveth sorrow, and I in foolish pride,
forget that He seeth the upper, and I the underside.

Not till the loam is silent and the shuttles cease to fly,
shall God unroll the canvas and explain the reason why.

The dark threads are as needful in the Weaver's skillful hand,
as the threads of gold and silver in the pattern He has planned.

~Al Bryant

Thank you for keeping this Mom so I could find it today. Who knew you would still be influencing our lives the way you are from the other side.