Tuesday, July 13, 2010

5 days

My little Xander is 5 days old.

Wow only 5 days? well, 5 very long days then.

Breastfeeding is absolutely controlling the greater portion of my life right now. It scares me to death. It hurts. I cringe. I bleed. I crack. Engorgement is finally on the downswing and just the little bit of relief convinces me I can run a marathon now...or accomplish some impossible feat. (not really on the marathon thing)

But nursing with 2 little excited girls is sort of a challenge...Julia super glued her fingers together tonight while I was nursing Xander. Her fingers were seriously "super glued" -it was pretty traumatic for her. Luckily Dad had some special spray of the sorts to help her get un-super glued.

Jaundice. Jaundice. Jaundice. 3 for 3. All three of my babies have pictures of them "all aglow" with the bilirubin lights.

I feel so many emotions lately. One thing hit me for sure- I am all mommy. I have three little people to take care of. My heart is so full of love for my little ones. Tonight Julia and Kenzie left for Grandma's house for 3 1/2 days. They have been gone maybe an hour and I already miss them. They drive me up the wall most days- but they are my girls...they give me so much joy. I feel bad the baby is taking so much of their mommy time away from them. Hopefully everything will re-adjust soon. I am so so so grateful Kenzie has another year until Kindergarten...oh I can't even face that right now. ok let's not think about that April.

Anyway I didn't mean to write so much... I really just wanted to post pictures for family and friends who live far far away. Xander is seriously so adorable to me. My crappy camera just doesn't do him any justice- he is just so fun to hold and look at.

So what do you think? Does Xander look like Chay? Me? I see a little Mckenzie in him, but I can't really tell...


Mothership said...

My two year old put super glue on like lipstick. (:

When you first posted pictures, my first thought was that he looked like your mom. I still think that, though I can't place why--face shape, nose, eyes???

I'm sorry about your nipples. I know that pain, too, and it's the worst. Good thing it gets so wonderful, eh?

Tara said...

He's such a cutie! Love that his eyes are so open!

Me~Kelly said...

he is sooo handsome! he looks like he is all boy :)

i see your husband in him but also traces of you and your mom :)

cathi said...

He is so adorable! Congratulations!

Tiffani said...

I look forward to meeting him in a couple days!

Tim, Janelle and Kiddos said...

O April, i am sooo excited for you! i have been checking your blog non-stop to see when you would have him and of course the one week i am out of town and unavailable to get online, he comes...anyway, I think he is just beautiful (and so long...but that's not surprising) and i hope one day our kids can meet!! Love ya!!!

Elissa said...

Chay. Especially in that 1st pic