Why did Sister Beck have to tell her "mother" story the way she did?
her words to be exact, "what will I do without my mother?"- this caused a monsoon of tears...and of course Brandi, who I consider an angel friend, cried right along with me.
The Lord is mindful of me. He really is. I felt His comfort tonight. I am not trying to pull any saga sorrow sympathy stuff on you about my mom- but seriously it has been on my mind a lot lately. The drama will soon fade. It will. It is just weird what I am going through...and it is really dragging me through some emotional feelings.
All I can say is that losing touch with Mom and not being able to communicate with her like I could just 1 month ago, has been one of the loneliest feelings I've had in a long time.
"We are all creators" didn't you just love Elder Uchtdorf's talk? That had to be one of the most powerful most inspired talks I have ever heard.
I honestly don't know what people do without the gospel. Miracles...so many miracles come from the knowledge we possess. Like tonight- I can't think of anything more therapeutic at the moment than attending the General Relief Society conference...I felt angels bearing me up.
A Jehovah's witness knocked on my door today and with his "watch tower" pamphlet he asked the question, "Do you really know your Heavenly Father?" and I looked at him in the eye and said, "I do...I know Him quite well" and it was an answer to prayer to hear my answer. So thank you Mr. Jehovah's Witness man for being inspired to knock on my door. Our little encounter today meant the world to me. Hopefully you make it as one of the 144,000- you probably will.
Today I went to a yard sale and there was the perfect tall dresser for the girl's room. I have been waiting patiently for a dresser that is tall with big drawers that will only cost $15 dollars or so...well the perfect dresser was already SOLD! I couldn't believe I wasn't going to get it. I was in shock. I kept talking to the owners of the house, telling them how badly I wanted that dresser...and the lady just said, "I am sorry sweetheart, it's sold" AHHHHHH someday someday....lol.
well I leave tomorrow to see mom. I will be there for 10 days. I am kind of dreading it. Don't know why- just kind of a whole new thing for me I guess- here I go...