it feels good to create.
so I inherited 2 sewing machines and a Bernina surger when Mom died.
I made a quilt once. Laurel project. 14 years ago. of course.
I think I made a skirt or started a skirt once and Mom finished it. of course.
I made stockings last Christmas. They turned out super cute. of course, they were stockings.
I tried to follow a pattern a couple months ago...2 dresses for the girls- screwed them up royally and called Aunt Linda to save me. Of course.
Sewing confuses me.
I almost feel this moral obligation to sew. Sometimes I want to. Sometimes I feel like I should emulate Mom and connect with her on some sewing crafty level...and sometimes I feel like I should use all her sewing stuff out of guilt- and sometimes I just let the machines sit in their place for months on months...with no desire whatsoever...
but when I do get the desire...it is sort of fun to make something...and I love the sense of accomplishment I get when I create.
When I sit down at a sewing machine I instantly get overwhelmed. My heart starts to pound- light sweat maybe... and I just wait for something to go wrong. After sewing a straight line for 30 seconds I can feel my shoulders getting tight..I get so intense. I sew really slow out of fear I will mess something up.
My thoughts while sewing: Come on April this is fun...you can do this...that is a scary needle... This is fun April. Just relax, breathe, oh my gosh my line is crooked, why is the machine making those noises??? now what???. Please don't run out of thread...please...I can't remember how to thread the bobbin...
Sorry Mom I am not a natural like you...I'm trying
About a month ago I had this crazy idea to re-vamp the master bedroom. It was disgusting. So I moved everything out into the living room and started on a much bigger project than ever anticipated. We are still 'living' in the living room- just for a heads up.
But I wanted to post pictures of my first ever sewn curtain/roman shades that I made for the bedroom. I am SO HAPPY with how they turned out. I only have one window done...but this is such an accomplishment for me. I had no idea how to make these...I just studied the roman shades at Lowes on display and looked up pictures online...but I feel confident...like I could maybe get better and better at this whole sewing/crafty world business.
look at that lovely mess...
Here is the process:
Drilling the holes for hardware
measuring and sewing
close up of the material
stringing it all together...and getting to finally use those wood beads from my 'back in the day' hemp jewelry collection...remember when hemp necklaces were the in thing????
those big chunky beads came in handy I tell you.
and here is the end product...I really do love these roman shades...plus they are green...I can't get enough of green. green as the color not green as environmentally friendly...I would have to hang recycled plastic bottle material to have those kind of 'green' shades...for only $18 a yard.
my camera battery is dying as you can tell from the foggy pictures...oh how I dream of trashing that thing and buying a nice camera...until then....
have a great day.