Monday, December 07, 2009

as of lately

look how excited and competitive they all are




but eventually only one takes all...




you lucky thing.



I'm due in July.

Yes I am only a month pregnant- but I have never understood the big secret.

So I could miscarry- been through that- it was those who knew all along that were able to help me the best...plus I can't keep it a secret anyway with me being green in the face all day.

my life is a living hell probably 75% of the day...my first trimesters are something else I tell you. I swear all women go to heaven every time I run to the toilet. Bearing children is quite the sacrifice isn't it? I am so tired. I don't even have the energy to wash my face most nights. It is a lonely time too. Frustrating to be a mom...having no patience...wanting relief...wishing I could control some aspect of my life...but it is basically all out of control...if I throw up only twice in a day I convince myself I am feeling better.

Last night I threw up my turkey dinner all over Chay's shoes. Sorry about the visual.

...miss my mom like crazy. She would be down here with me in heartbeat. She would cook and clean and play with my girls. She would stay as long as I needed her. Oh how I miss that Lady. Life can be so unfair.

and don't get me started on the girls who don't get morning sickness...I want to just yell at them and tell them all to go to...LOL. Ok. so I am a little jealous...

I am excited still despite how I feel. A little overwhelmed and scared but excited. I know I am doing Heavenly Father's will...I know there are still more spirits to come down and be in our family. I look forward to the day when I don't have that feeling anymore :)

so here's to sleepless nights and big thighs...

pregnant with #3- can't wait to hold you my little one...

17 comments:

The Wright Stuff said...

YAY APRIL AND CHAY!!!! I am thrilled for you guys! I get sick just thinking about how sick I was all summer long. That first tri is a doozy! I am praying that this time around won't be so horrible for you!!!!! My 3rd pregnancy was my best! Hang in there! I wish I could have your girls over to play.... although right now would not be the best time.... with Logan barfing and me with a cold and sinus infection.... I wouldn't be much help... but just know that I'm thinking of you and praying that you have amazing friends down there to help you through the day! :) Love ya!

Janna said...

Here is to sleepless nights and large thighs! I am so happy for you guys. that is AWESOME! You'll probably have another girl. Chay needs more estrogen in his life. :) Love you.

The Pyper Fam said...

YEAH!!! Congrats you guys! I hope that after this first trimester things get better for you!!! I've gotten more and more sick as this pregnancy has gone on , so hopefully, you will be getting it over with at the beginning! :) I am so so so happy for you! I can't wait to hear what it is! Are you going to find out?

Tami said...

CONGRATS! That is so awesome - ok not awesome you are pucky sick and miserable. I wish you could skip all that part...sorry! Hang in there! Hope to see you and your fam this weekend with Santa!

Calie said...

I miss you April. I am sorry you are barfy sick. I love you! I love to read your posts.

Mothership said...

How wonderful! It is worth it all to get a new baby, isn't it?

Lindsay Heiser said...

Congrats you guys!! That's very exciting! I'm so sorry that you've been so sick.. There really is nothing like that first trimester =( I would love to have your girls over anytime to play.. Seriously let me know if I can help! Hopefully the sickness doesn't last too long!

Hollie said...

Oh my goodness, I am so excited for your family. CONGRATS!!!

We never wait to tell people either. Jared CANNOT keep a secret to save his life. =)

Please, please, please let me know if there is anything I can do to help. I am so sorry you get so sick. That is just miserable!

Julander Family said...

Congrats April! I'm right there with you! ;) You haven't asked me for awhile!!! And yes I hate those who don't have morning sickness, or night sickness, or all day sickness. I have all of thee above! Oh but sorry to tell you I don't puke much, just want to all the time! Puked once so far and dry heaved a few more times than desired, especially at the scent of a two year old smelly bum! Oh I wish I didn't have diapers to change! Ughh! Like I said right there with ya! Good luck and congrats...eventually they are worth it right???

Cami said...

Congratulations!! I'm so excited for you! Once I settle in to life with three, I'll have your girls over to play - Michael and Faith would love it!

Tiffani said...

Cute visual - I had to show Paul! Oh, you were so looking forward to that turkey dinner. I'm excited for your family. Sorry you feel so crappy, wish you lived closer so I could take your girls and give you a break!

Chay said...

Wait....you told me the other day that you puked....but failed to mention that it was all over my shoes. Awwwhhhh crap.

Well.....Love you.

Heather said...

I honestly hope that you have another child just like julia, that girl is so amazing, I freaking love her, and she is exactly the kind of person who will change History and our world for the better!!! yeah to Ap and Chay....you make good babies!!! Congrats!!! I have tears in my eyes thinking about your mom walking, talking and teaching this sweet soul all about your family. and how you are such an awesome mom and how lucky they are!!! I miss her too....I miss her coming to our house and recounting all the adventures that her kids were having!!! Good Luck!! Take your prenatal Vits!!!!

Tim, Janelle and Kiddos said...

I'm so excited for you!! I miss you and Emily!!! We are contemplating number 4 (well Tim more than I)...are we crazy? How's your MS when you are prego? I have a good friend here that has it too and her symptoms go away when she is pregnant...I'll hope that for you too!! :)

JP Anderson said...

Congratulations! My mother will be pleased to hear you're having another child. It's one of the questions she asks me all the time. "Are Chay and April expecting?" I guess I kind of lied to her last week when she asked.

At least it wasn't your motorcycle boots Chay.

Rachel said...

Yay for you guys, congrats!!! It's funny because I saw you on Sunday and I starting thinking about how your girls and my girls are each only a month apart and how you guys hadn't had another one yet, so it was okay that I hadn't either. (great reasoning, i know). So I guess I can't use that anymore. Congrats, very exciting.

Laura said...

Congrats April and Chay!!!!