Wednesday, January 20, 2010


still alive...still pregnant...still sick...

I go in sick spurts. Being around adults seem to help me. Usually I try to fake that I'm not sick. Doesn't work all the time. If I have food in my stomach at all times it seems to help settle things- hence the butt is growing faster than the belly.- if I go too long without food or if I eat the wrong food, I get off track and I will throw up all day.

I am so entirely wasted. So tired. Like "I can't do anything" tired. I need the sun. I really miss sunshine. When I am sick like this I always think of the Indians and the Pioneers who had no choice but to keep working, keep moving, keep surviving despite horrid morning sickness...oh I would be the worst pioneer. Don't you love the pity party??? Don't worry, I am fully aware of it.

I need a trip to Hawaii. I need a maid too...oh that would be nice.

other thoughts:

Haiti is on my mind a lot these days. I really get sucked into stuff like this. CNN has the best coverage. I watch it whenever I can- I can't even imagine going through what these people are experiencing. I sit on my couch watching the news and when stories air where Haitian mother's are searching for their children in the rubble- I lose it every time. Tears of sadness.

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Christmas thoughts:

Joette knocked on my door a couple days before Christmas. She drove down to surprise me. I cried like a baby when I saw her. I needed family so bad. I actually felt more alive with her here. Being sick is so emotionally draining. It was a tender mercy to have my sister with the family this year. Christmas was magical. My girls loved having Joette around. The house was always clean when she was here.

Her Christmas gifts to me were my favorite gifts. She played my piano every day for a week straight and she bought me wash rags. I LOVE the wash rags Joette. I love the endless supply in my bottom drawer. Rags just keep coming and coming.

One of the songs Joette played for me on the piano is Comptine d´un autre été l´après midi. Joette played it so beautifully. I fell in love with the song. Oh how I wish I could play it. Music really draws out many feelings in me- it kind of takes me to another place if you know what I mean. Joette and I both agreed if we were professional musicians (which we are far from), our goal would not to only entertain our listeners but to allow our listeners to take the music and go to their own place with it, to make it a personal experience. That would be the goal. meaningful- we would shoot for meaningful.

Do you want to hear the song? oh and the video- I don't really think of trees when I hear this song but this is the best video I could find. Enjoy. oh the piano. Blessed piano.

since I haven't blogged for a month or so...a lot of things have happened. My dad got married a couple weeks ago. Kind of a bittersweet moment. I am just so grateful for my siblings. I feel like my brothers and sister are my stability right now in my immediate family. We are all kind of in this together. Although it seems I'm the only one who isn't handling all the changes that well...maybe it's because I'm the baby of the family...I might just still be in denial.- ...having a hard time letting go of the family structure I grew up with.

But I am happy for my Dad. I really love his new wife Kay. I just miss Mom. What can I say? I miss having a mother who always cared, always called, always listened, always gave me support, always reminded me how much I am loved. I miss that. I miss her.

All I know is our parents must have done something right, because us siblings are very close friends and would do anything for each other. We understand each other's quirks...and somehow the relationship foundation we have is more important than petty miscommunication silly stuff that some families deal with. Although I do remember when we were little Bryon locking me in dark rooms, giving me dead legs until my legs were blue, and pinning me down to either halk loogies or fart in my face. Joette and I had our fair share of fist fights and Keith was always beating up Bryon for beating up on his sisters...let's just say we have come a long way.

I looked this afternoon for a picture of us kids when we were younger to luck- got too tired. We were a cute bunch us Tomblin kids.


The Wright Stuff said...

I'm so happy that you blogged again! I have really been missing you!!! Joette is such an awesome sister! What a wonderful Christmas gift for you!!!!

I'm sorry to hear that you're still so sick... how long are you usually sick for??? Please don't say the whole time! :) I don't know how the pioneers did it either! But I know we would have been able to do it too!

You and your siblings are so close and that is truly such a blessing! I love you Tomblin's! :)

I'm glad to know you're still alive! I hope you feel better VERY soon! Love you!

Tara said...

I remember when I was pregnant and sick that I told Niels I could not do it again. So draining to be sick and always hovering over the toilet. Hopefully the morning sickness passes soon and you can enjoy the rest of your pregnancy.

Dorene said...

Thinking of you and praying for relief from your morning sickness.
I loved the pix of Joette and the girls. All you girls are SO beautiful! I'm happy for your Dad April but I know how difficult it must be to move on. Take solace in the fact that your Mom will always be with you in spirit and her legacy will endure forever in the foundation she instilled in all you kids and you share forward. I love you guys!! I miss you Mom too, what a lovely, lovely soul!

Emily Taylor said...

You know that song is the ONE song I can play on the piano. I love it, it is actually my favorite song. Hence taking the time to learn how to play it.

This too shall pass. And then there will be something else. Isn't that always how it seems to go? But you are always made a better person for it.

Hollie said...

Beautiful song, I love the sound of the piano. You have inspired me to try to teach myself to play again. Now if only I had a piano...! =)

What a wonderful sister you have. I love siblings! I'm so glad she surprised you with a visit, I'm sure it was much needed.

I'm so sorry I haven't been around to see if you need help. I feel so self absorbed lately and I don't like that at all. Please let me take your girls sometimes so you can get some rest. I will be calling you.

Hang in there. I sure hope the sickness stops soon so you can just start enjoying everything again. Love ya, Hollie

Solveig said...

Congratulations on being pregnant, but I'm sorry you've been sick! I definitely hated that part of pregnancy!

It sounds like you and Joette had a lot of fun together. What a great Christmas present that she surprised you with a visit!

My mom was here this past week, and we were reminiscing about your mom and what a wonderful person she was. We miss her too.